How could I ever believe
you’d be able to understand
How could I be so naïve
Why did I not comprehend.
It’s obvious, it’s evident
but I just didn’t want to see
it’s been childlike to trust a friend
knowing she does not trust me.
And I can persist taking the blame
calling myself a backward dolt
I can put myself to shame
saying it was all my fault.
But I couldn’t help being the friend
that I also wanted you to be
I didn’t need you to understand
but I needed you to believe in me.
So you told me what I want to hear
and it made me happy for a while
but you betrayed me, exploited my fear
and that’s no white lie, that’s just vile.