Trying to focus,
not letting go the toughts...
Pointless.
I can't remember how I felt,
Can't remember how you felt...
Did I really love you?
Or is all this just imagination,
coming from the thoughts of you leaving me?
I can't focus.
I'm thinking of your name,
I'm thinking of what I felt when I first saw you,...
but I can't seem to find you anywere.
You dissapeared,
like something wanted you out of my memories.
I can't see how you used to be,
I can't see the real you anymore.
I've lost every thought about you,...
your lovelyness just left.
The impossibility of remembering you.
Supressed feelings,...
I know I'm only loving a thought.
I know I’m holding on to the you that has vanished.
I know my you doesn't excist anymore.
Nevertheless I refuse to let go.
I rather love a feeling than to lose my love,
To lose my confidence in thoughts...
Thoughts that there is still some love in this painful world.