I haven’t seen your lovely face for to many days
I’m on the verge of forgetting how you look at me with those love-filled eyes
The days without you are painfully long and empty
And I count them with tears in my eyes
Without you I feel like a useless body
For my soul lingers above always searching for yours
Another week like this one
And I believe that I will yearn for a sturdy rope around my neck
Pain, Love, Hatred and Sorrow are forming a thick fog around my head
Making me blind for the troubles of the people around me
I feel that I am losing grip on myself and you
But I haven’t the strength to grab you
Nor do I have the will
But in a strange ironic way that is what I want
For you have brought me more misery than joy
Many sleepless nights I have cursed your name
Although I cannot live with those thoughts
And I still can’t decide to either love or hate you
I know that you already feel miserable
And I didn’t write this to hurt you
But I think that you should know how I truly feel
And I still fell that we should talk
Or I think that you’ll be visiting me soon
In the white room next to that of the schizophren