it's the same every day
school has finished again today
back at home i throw my mask away
i run to my bedroom and put my beautifull mask
away in the closet till the morning comes again
sitting on my bed thinking and
realising what a clown i was today
i'm always smiling and avoiding the truth
laughing talking yelling playing
it looked like i was having fun
but i knew better it wasn't the real me
i was just protecting myself for
anything that could do my wrong
comming back at home i see myself
in the mirror and all i want to do is
to punish myself to eat myself to death
to cut myself into so many little pieces
tears of pain tears of disapointments
tears of seeing myself turning in something
i can not longer be i don't longer want to be
don't kwon who i really am what i really am
can't nobody see that i'm dying again
that the pain inside is to much to hold
everyday carrying all that pain
hiding the real me i'm sick of it
nobody will ever know what i feel
what i think what i want
afraid of what still has to come
so broken inside, so lonely not understood
my heart is screaming it wants to die
every beat it makes is a beat to much
I can't go on like this
just want everyday to be the last day
to release myself to find some peace