ALL ALONE


Who or what are you
when compliments cut your flesh
like razors
and insults
make you feel stronger than before
I am more insane than inhumane
or more dead than alive
in this stage of my life
why am I alive
why was I born into this world?
what is my goal in my lifetime?


My life is just a cruel game on extreme hard
with only one life
with myself against the entire world
but guess what I am extreme enough to survive this massacre
I was born for this, this is my destiny
I don’t deserve joy in death
I deserve pain in life.
My friends are laughing no doubt
they have harmony and hope in their life
but they are just average normal let them have that life
I’d rather suffer through my days
all alone
die alone
after I fought alone
against myself
the world
and life itself
let the world spit on me
scratch my body open
pull my heart out of my chest
and bury it
I will still get up
the extreme life doesn’t die that easily
the entire world is just a disgrace to me
I am extreme perfectly clear the only one unique
and the rest just assets in life
I don’t want your types of life
I create my own one
no doubt there is no one like me before
and there will be no one worse like me
with me dies this extremity
just try to keep up with me when I make history




I feed on my wounds
the pain I feel makes me feel alive inside
of that broken heart of mine
that heart than can beat
even broken but no one’s beats for it
just like I die for them and they just don’t cry
if I would been buried alive
I guess my actions deserve theirs
I am just a mistake from above
but I will erase myself in death
the only exit I have in my lifetime
Crucified like Jesus Christ
gunned to death like in a war
laying breathing out
your last moments in the dirt
or been cut like a piece of meat by the butchers of the night
all these personal demons of mine
just waiting till I break down in cries
they can wait till hell freezes over this time
I won’t welcome defeat
I will not break from the statue I am on
I will stay here mountains high in the white sky
because I am stronger now than before
and I am still growing tall now
I have accepted the fact
that I have to live this life of mine
all alone in the dark
with no one feels anything about me
only hate for a miss understood essence
so extreme you won’t remember my name
even if you would take the time to try
my name will burn up fade away in the air
drown in the oceans so deep
like the highest peak
my name solid as a rock but so fragile like a premature
no one will hear it when I speak my name
when I speak sound that no one understands
just a forgotten name
in the unwritten past of life
the spoken name of the nemesis extreme


You see I’m, just nemesis extreme
I’m just a regular boy,
I don’t know why all the excitement
about my soul
Nobody ever gave a fuck before,
all they did was doubt my goal
Now everybody wanna run to me
and try to take the talent from me


you might see me laughing
you might see me crying
but You won’t see me dying
a death organized by my
own hand presentated by god
and as the special guest star
on the extreme show
his son crucified died in return of life
or seeing my corpse hanging out of a window,
with my own crucifix suffering smothering me
and taking my life by force to bring me to the darkness and binds me holds me
till my essence fades in the ignorance of life

all I see on the street are pretty boys laughing
no real warriors
not worthy of having a woman
what happened to be being extremely violent?
against your enemies
and nice to your loved ones
all those losers happy not worthy of being alive
let them save the world
and she will already be dead before execution
all those pairs just make me sick
make me puke
I can stare death in the eyes
but seeing them makes me die more
than 10 swords through the heart
I am better of all alone
live alone
fight alone
die alone
been buried alone
With no one shedding blue life for a soul
only alive in the dark from the world

Burn from my own inside my soul and heart enflamed
with the power of life
Still hanging on
on a tread so fragile like the innocence of a child

Like my brother saw me dying
crossing over to the other side
kept crying
until
I came back to life

how many cuts
how many bruises
how many wounds I collect
I will not stand in for death
or defect to the side where my heart dies
One thing I learned all this time of my life
how many pain I manage to survive
how more I grow in this life
as a person so alive more inside
so you see from the outside
that white light shines
The lights send by god
shines like living the way of the Christ
The love of the passion
And the passion of love

My life will not been cut to pieces
I will not go down
till hell freezes
When I say goodbye to this creature inside of me
that makes my essence
that makes me
what I am
what I was born to be
what I will grow up to be
the only one
one lifetime unique
one being so endangered almost extinct
scream my name at the sky
if you want to see me
the only true nemesis extreme


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