(Not) & Happy
most of what takes place
takes place in my head
my head
guess you don’t know
my head
there lives My Self
and I
one’s Happy
one’s Not
nothing ever changes about that
together they think en talk
they are the cause
of whatever takes place
in my head
in my live
sometimes Happy ‘s sleeping
sometimes Not is
and when they’re both half awake
I’m alive
but when Happy sleeps
it gets dark
too dark
when Not sleeps
I’m this complete different person
when I’m too loud
Not awakes
and turns my happeniness
into complete sadness
Not is not letting go
until he raged out
and remembers me of a time
me and Not were big friends
and we hated the world
and all the people in it
sometimes he whispers: I miss it...
don’t you?
then I’m trying no wake Happy
but Happy is still a kid
and likes to sleep a lot
so I have to bare all
Not is saying
sometimes he screams
sometimes he cries
sometimes he’s kickboxing
with my brain
trying to push away
my moral, my believes
my God
but though Happy is just a kid
His Father wakes him
when things seem to be turning out
the bad way
Happy awakes
there’s a fight
no-one ever wins
until that day
I will be so Happy
on that Happy Day