Cutting in my skin
In the middle of the night
Expression and punishment for not being thin
I don’t have the energy anymore to fight
This struggle every day
Not knowing of what I feel
A strong urge to flight away
Deep wounds that won’t seem to heal
To many hours spending on the toilet
Purging to lose some weight
Overeating, cause of all this hate
Throwing up, sow I can forget
Friends don’t understand this fear
In their eyes it’s all a lie
I wish I could disappear
Instead of this feeling wanting to die
Please take away this deadly knife
Tell me it just isn’t my time
I feel like I don’t need to stay alive
Convincing myself that suicide is not a crime