A poem for Yulis.
I have secretly kissed all the stars in the sky
whispering your name, over and over again
it felt like I had gone insane
crazy, lost in translation,
shameless
I didn’t care about it
a hundred rivers, or more, I swam
nude, losing more of my dignity with every stroke
nothing more, nothing less,
shameless
I didn’t care about it
footprints full of blisters I’ve left behind
running up the highest mountains
stumbling down the rockiest roads
I bled, I cried,
shameless
I didn’t care about it
I have danced amidst wolves
to the rhythm of drums gone wild
pretending it was the beat of your heart
howling, fearless,
shameless
I didn’t care about it
it made me feel closer to you than ever
until,
until just one little teardrop ago
I realized
the stars never kissed me back
those rivers were narrow and shallow
the mountains never more than hills
rocky roads seemed regular alleys
in the end, the wolves,
ah, the wolves,
they slept all along
and you
you are a million dreams away
but I will keep dreaming
hoping, loving, shameless
because I care
god knows, I care
Steve (Tom Witvis) 19 December 2009