I hear voices in my head
Even when there isn't anybody around
I see thing with me happen infront of me
Like it is a glance in the future
I do everything too fast without thinking
And by the time I regret, it's too late
I taste life in another unpleasant way
In times like this I want to die
I think about subjects very melancholy
Which makes me more depressive then I already am
I don't have any hopes in the future
Nothing appeals to me or brighten up my days
I can't stand meself right now
With my high demands on me and others
I feel things only inside me
No true emotions escapes from my heart
I fall in love very easily
One moment the green-eyed and then the other
I put away all my expressions of feelings
Till it's the moment when I explode
I become very aggressive if I'm pushed too far
By then it's hell for everybody near me
I give loads of unneccessary orders
Just to make sure the ones I love are safe
I enjoy quite times on my own
Then I'd be able to come to my senses
I thend to act like someone I'm not
Only by the thought that then I'd be liked
I wish to be someone else
Without so much troubles and doubts
I need things that others can't give
Cause I can't explain what I want
I am doomed to life
For the coming years
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