The day you left
You said you couldn't go on like this
Someone had destroyed
your innerlife
and you hadn't the courage
to give yourself to me
or anyone else.
But after all you still loved me.
I mustn 't have been perfect
Never knew what was missing
Cuz you never told me!
Experience I hadn 't,
so how could I know or even imagine?
Two months later
you finally admit
You had feelings for another girl
who had allready taken one of my ex-boyfriends
Couldn't believe my eyes.
But after all, you did it again.
You've hurt me for a second time.
Only this time was different,
MORE worse
I had never felt so lost.
I've cried an ocean
of sadness, regrets and anger
I knew you and gave you
the chance you wanted so badly.
I noticed,
at least I thought,
that you were changed
that you had grown up.
So I listened
to the little voice inside of me,
told me to give you that chance..
on the condition that
I would protect my heart
by taking the first months
distance from real love
But I failed.
Our love fell apart
caused by a third heart
of evil, egoism and jealousy.
You ran straight in the arms of the enemy
All of a few little doubts.
Powerless I had to suffer..
the same situation you had gone through
And I still understand
more than ever
your fear to become attached to somebody
It's like no one can fill this emptiness
I will never be the same
cuz you learnt me to see also
the dark side of love.
You made me believe to
give up endless love.
It just doesn't excist
(28-07-2003)