How Bad It Hurts
I never knew how bad it hurt,
Until the pain exist.
I was a victim of this abuse
The mental, emotional, & physical pain,
Was no use.
It’s hard to explain my hurt,
The pain & tear’s that stabbed my heart
I hope that some where along life’s way
This felling of pain and sorrow
Will go away.
Know one ever knows how you feel,
Your self-esteem so low.
You only know that pain that you feel
And never let anyone know.
All the years I sat and cried,
Why didn’t any one ask why?
It felt as if I was all alone,
Just me myself, and I.
Didn’t anyone see the scars?
Why didn’t they care?
Because of them I have so much pain
It isn’t fair.
I feel as if I am a nothing.
No one to kiss or hug,
No one tells me that they love me.
Instead they always say I am a nothing.
As I look at myself in the mirror;
All I see is my pain.
No happiness or joy,
Just a face full of shame.
Staring into the night,
I ask god why?
Then I cry myself to sleep
Wishing and praying
That one day I will be liked.
As I walked through my dark world,
All I could feel was pain.
My heart was filled with love for others,
But there was no love to gain.
As other people stared at me,
My heart began to close.
Not knowing what they were thinking
My self-esteem was none.
I know what I saw myself as
But what were they thinking?
I am a nothing a nobody,
I am a disgrace to this world.
No one wants or loves me
So why should I be here?
So gods please take me far away.
I never knew what to do
I thought I couldn’t get help.
All I needed was a caring hand,
Just someone to tell me they cared.
I still feel this pain and sorrow;
Depression and no happiness.
I’ll cry until the day I die,
And no one will ever know why.
It hurts to live my life each day,
I am just going to have to say good-bye.