Do you still believe?
As the water pours out of the sky
and you turn up your head,
look into the eyes of the stars
You know
but you don’t believe
think that you seem to be unwearthy of my sacrifice
but wasn’t it also the other way around?
I can’t be only yours
You can’t bind everyone to you so tight
that I have no one left but you
and eventually no choices to make for myself
You stand in the middle
I do not wish to envy you, and I don’t
but though you tell me it makes you so tired and senseless
you are terrified of losing that place
Don’t you see?
You’re not allowed to bind me to you exclusively
It’s not OK for you to tell people to come to you first
I won’t accept always being second best with people
just because you can’t handle them not being exclusively bound to you
Do you still believe that I will be there for you
no matter what you do or say?
Do you?
Will you listen to me too?
Please try to put aside your fears
because you assuring your future is exactly what is suffocating me
and if you have sacrificed yourself for me, haven’t I done the same?
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