A day in the life...
An alarm clock sounds, ripping through my slumber.
Daybreak.
I open the curtain, the light hurts my eyes, the sight fuels my desperation.
Cold damp rooftops stare at me coldheartedly, through the clouds I can see the sun.
The colours of dawn are the only thing I wake up for, beautiful ignorant, alone.
Every day they change, but their beauty remains the same, simple.
I wish that I could change like they do, reinvent myself, throwing away the past.
And yet it still seems to me that they feel my pain, in reflections my pain they portray.
Dark red for my being unable to let go, lighter orange for my loneliness.
And the flashing yellow for my pain
And yet each morning I see them fade, unlike myself
I watch the world flash by, wanting to see it change, but it remains the same grey.
I try to focus on my destination, but I haven’t got a clue to where I’m going.
-laat 2000-