Only now
after a few days have slowly passed
in this darkened existance
I find myself into
my heart starts wheeping
Only now
after countless thoughts
have blinded my head
but opened my mind
my eyes start bleeding
Only now
when it seems too late
I wonder:"What if..."
Only now
I realise
my graetest fear came true
because now I know
that while trying to protect myself
from a threath I still can't find
I was killing a friend
Not just now
but now more then ever
I wish I could start over again...