something's wrong...
a place for my mind,
thats all i ask for,
it's a place i still need to find,
but i have opened every door,
still i havent found what i need,
it makes me sad again,
so sad it makes me bleed,
and i ask myself this question..when?
a dark shadow hidden under my skin,
under the mask of happieness i wear,
but this time i wont sin,
as empty as i am i never been before...i swear,
no one knows how i feel,
and they don't understand,
so i burry myself for real,
and stuff my head into the sand,
they will never know for i cant bring myself to tell,
what caused all this pain inside me,
they wouldnt understand and call me a whimp but this feeling is my hell,
i wish i was free,
free of this pain,
free of this sadness,
free of my life lived in vain,
able to be happy by just playing chess,
able to just smile and mean it,
able to feel happy,
but how much i wish for it i even feel more like shit,
why is life so crappy,
they dont notice since i hide so well,
i hide all this pain pain so deep,
but still it holds me locked in like a prison cell,
i say nothing about it since they would think of me like a creep,
i must have done something wrong without noticing,
~theedoekje~