I wanted you to know how I felt in side
I had a lot of troubles in my mind.
But I did not say a word to you
So you did not even have a clue.
When there was something wrong with you
I was there listent and did everything for you
After a few minutes you felt good again
You picked up where you left and shut me out again
But after a few days you lost your confidence
You looked around and was in a trance
I wanted to help you in every way
I told you you had to take it all day by day
You knew I would always be there for you
Do you even know what I did do
A lot of people called me insane
And told me that you would give me a lot of pain.
I let them see that you where kind and good
I showed them a side of you they never could
They saw true my eyes and let you in
My friends where your friends
The crushes I had you fell in love with them
You kissed them and put your spell on them
they loved you.. and left me broken without a first aid kit
I did not mind you could have had everything you wanted to your fit
Do you remember the love I had for miss angel Lilly
I really miss her friendship it is a shame that it ended all so silly
But then there was a day
That took all our interesting things we had all away
The things that happened I don’t really get
What went on that night I will never forget
Other people told you and me things that were going on
I just wanted to let the nightmare to be gone
But instead it kept going on and on
You did not know what to believe and doubt the things that I had said.
You where in the middle of 2 people you loved
You did not know who was telling you the truth and who was lying
And then you made a decision after all our crying
you chose not to be friends with me anymore
I hated that but I held my head up high and walked out the door
In my heart I know that you know the truth but that love has blind you
I don’t blame you I don’t blame others I don’t blame me I blame love
But love cant be blamed because in my heart you will always be my friend with love
I know I did nothing wrong that night
And I wish I had put up a fight.
But I was frozen by shock
And I ran out off luck….
He did things with me I never wanted to do
And everything from that night is in my head stuck like glue
But I know now he had no right to abuse me
If getting drunk means rape me… what is this world coming to
I hope he will live in shame 4 ever and that it will always haunt him
I wish he will not touch another woman of girl
No one deserves being treated like there just a object that they can use when ever they feel like it…
And by all the power in me I swear I will let him pay for what he has done
Not now or in a month but when it comes is comes…
He used me and got away with it
And now I am not the girl I used to be and have to live with what has happened and who I am now
But the one thing I do miss is you my dear friend I wanted you to be my friend and listen and tell me the things I needed to hear.. but you weren’t there anymore you had your own things on your mind
I don’t mind you ended our friendship cause I will always have the memories and the love of our friendship in my heart you are not gone to me and you wont leave cause every where I go every little thing there is always something that reminds me of you or our friendship
But was it all true…
was it really friendship ….
Or was it just me and being so in love that I did not see..
I loved giving you complements and letting you feel good… when I did your eyes sparkled en twinkled and make me feel good. Your eyes always gave away how you were feeling.
I told my self I did not need you anymore that your gone and out of my live..
But it seems I was lying to my self cause I keep on thinking of the friendship that we had…
I really hope that you have found your luck and that your happy now
That is why I did not argue with you to end our friendship..
I just want you to be happy and if your happy without me in your live
Well I wont be in your way of happiness…
Hope that you are doing well
But I Just wanted you to know that I will never forget our friendship we had it will stay in my heart 4 ever
All this what I wrote is me saying goodbye to you and hello to yours and my new live
And I hope this will be a closure for me
But remember I will not forget But I will let it al be…
And I hope in time you will think of me…
And see that my love for you was like the stars up in the sky for ever and eternity always there and never
Gone….
The stars are always present even if you can not see them
Sometimes it is cloudy and you cant see the stars
Stars can not disappear that is a fact after the clouds have left the reappear
Meaning the friendship that we had is like a star behind a cloud but still here in my heart and it will never go away because it is a part of me…
I now it can never be as it was and I do not want it to be
I have my thoughts and moving on with my live without you….
But with the gift you gave me I thank you for that….
But also Hate you for that….