It stabs like a knife
To know that I did wrong
It hurts like hell
To know that I hurt you
From every fault I'll learn
But this was a lesson I didn't want to learn
I don't want to hurt anyone anymore
Just me
This ain't excuses for what I've done
I just didn't know how to handle
With all that
So much had caught my mind
No place to think clearily
I didn't know what to do
A month long
All this time no peace of mind
Never a silent moment
Always thinking about all sort of things
I thought I got rid of all this
But now...I'm laying here
Thinking about you
I just can't stop
It eats me that I didn't knew what to do
It's a black piece in me
That I could have hurted ou like this
I just have to hope
That some day you can speak to me
Without anger or tears
Just a smiling face
That we'll be joking like we did
Even though I did all this fucked up things
I just have to hope and pray
That you'll forgive me
For lie-ing to you
For loving you not half as much as you did
For hating you sometimes
I just have to wait
But untill this time comes
There will be a knife in my arm
To help me forget what I feel
To help me get to life without mental pain
I just have to hope you once will accept my apolige