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I hate us..
I hate the way..
I hate your words..
I'd love to say..
I fucking hate you,
for all you do
And I can't stand your smile
it's making me sick!
I'm filled with anger
but I do have my peace
I'm need of luck
in fucking need of relieve
I hate you so bad,
for I cannot touch
I wanna hurt you so bad
'cuz I love you so much
I wanna let you know
how it feels to feel sorry
I wanna let you feel
how it is to die each day
I wanna show you
that you screwed me all up
I wanna tell you
that I don't give a fuck
I wanna scream I hate you
that I'd rather see you dead
I wanna say I don't love you
but it's different..
in the head..
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20.12.2005
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