Making a mess of all that I do.
Seems that problems are the only thing I can put myself into.
Trying to do my best, trying not to hurt the ones I love.
Now with my eyes so wet I look al the sky above.
Asking for forgiveness, for the mistakes I’ve made that hurts others meanwhile I’m okay.
I do wane change, but problems stays on my way.
Trying to do the best I can.
But that’s a thing others can’t seem to understand.
My heart filled with so much love inside,
but there’s also al lot of pain what sometimes I can’t hide.
And some days I just wane have fun.
That’s were always everything start to go wrong.
Always when I do something what I want to do,
I’m messing things up and don’t know what to do.
Just because of an empty battery on my phone.
My parents start flipping at home.
Not knowing were I’m at.
But I always will come home, and then they are so mad.
I life for my mom I really do.
It’s not that I liked all the things I put here threw.
It also hurts me from inside.
And I’m sorry for putting the worry’s on here mind.
Helping here the best I can.
But some times I wane do my own things,
But it seems like she just can’t understand.
Some times I do make here cry.
That’s a thing I can’t deny.
When I was little everything was so good.
But that’s just because I lived the way she thinks I should.
Know I’m 18 and got my own look at the world and what I want to do.
And not long ago I hade so much problems for mistakes she put us threw.
I don’t say that I blame.
But to me it feels like the same.
I just wane live, forget the past.
Making fun and not worry about the rest.
But having my fun is always turning in madness.
And give her again so much sadness.
But here pain I do can feel.
And do love her for real.
But some times I wish my life is getting more mine.
Instead of still living my life like she wish me to,
Maybe that’s the reason why I get those problems like I do.