I keep wondering why I won't die,
I just wanna end this shit with "goodbye"
I just wanna grab a knife and kill myself,
but when I kill myself my soul will still cry
I thought It was finally over with this big curse,
but when you think it's all getting better it's getting worse
Cause that's life, it's not just being different than other people,
it's growing older and knowing more things cause you're not equal,
to others, everybody's finding out some strange things some day,
mine is I got 2 personalities, which won't go away
one time I'm friendly and emotionally and can't say 'no',
the next minute I just wanna stand the fuck up and slit you throat,
just to see what it looks like when you're down there bleeding to death,
I know it's sick, and I'll never do it as long as I'm loyal to Rap,
And my family suport me so much, they tryin' to keep me from that,
And I just feel bad that I'm too coward to thank them for that
But you know I'll always be here suporting you too,
Even though I make mistakes and sometimes just start cussin' at you,
But stop telling people I was using words that just are too rough,
Cause I wasn't sayin' them about you, I was cussin' about stuff!