I've messed my life up, and I know it
How can I make them trust me again?
How can I undo all the lies and unhonsesty?
I want so bad that I can live on
but I don't know how!
the trust I've abussed is not coming back
I know that that takes a while
but I'm trying so hard and still it's not right
I'm getting so deppressed of that
it's a spiral I just can't get out off
but the worst thing of all is the knowledge I've caused it myself
how can I be mad at them for the things I've destroyed myself
help me to be free again
to spread my wings and fly
just how I always did
but maybe I will never do that again
maybe I can't fix it all this time