I can’t recognise your eyes
As I try to find myself
Their not looking with the same amazement
As they once did
I’m scared of you
Terrified sometimes
All these papers burned
You just erased these lines
Slowly you forget about everything
To ask and to give
To see and to feel
Slowly you’re breaking me down
I keep wondering why you never apologised
Said you were sorry or wiped my cries
Wondering so much now,
Why did you lost your interests in me?
Wondering why you never seem to care anymore
how I feel or how I’d be doing
It slowly kills me
How much I never knew you,
how much I never got
How much I trusted to you,
and you just laughed and crushed
But I think I understand,
Cause I’m not much to live for
Not so beautiful as all the rest,
I’m not so much to love
Neither someone to die for…
I got was a heart, just there.
The contents not so precious to care.
But you got me drowning
when I saw all your other girls
On the other side of the glass.
They found you caring, loving, talking to them
like you’ve never done to me.
As much laughter as tears
They found You, and they fully got You.
What did I do wrong, to never come that far?
Where have I turned right where you wanted me to go left?
Where did I moved when you wanted me to hold still
And why did you never tell..
I do envy them, though I’m not jealous.
This is a greater pain.
Just shattered, all I ever though I had, but never got.
All I thought to be, but never was.
All the heart I gave so trustfully
now I'm slowly pulling back,
in pieces and splinters bleeding thru my soul.
Shattered by someone I ‘effin loved,
but who just played a role…
And I keep wondering what was so hard for you,
I keep wondering how I could make it all okay.
How I can make you care,
how you’d see me once more with that eyes.
Passing you by and everything around
it would just fade slowly
and your eyes would only Stare at me…
I’m giving myself a hard time, holding this hope so high.
Cause I know your eyes captured another sight.
"I Want To Defend Everything
As I Hold You So Closely To Me."
Forever Yours,
As Painfull it Is now, To know that line it True..
Forever, Forever Yours