every day is a struggle
every day I live unwillingly
I wouldn't say I'm fighting
'cause I don't have the energy
I have to save up every little energy
just to survive one more day
another day trying not to show
trying to be or just appear to be happy
am I trying to be myself
or am I trying to be my opposite
I have fear for every day
some sort of fear for myself
every night before I go to sleep
I pray that I won't ever wake up