Finally I succeded
That's what I thought
Finally I got everyting right
That's what I hoped
I thought I lost it
The ability to confuse myself
That I lose this is my hope
But everytime it fades away
I still manage to get myself into this corner
A never ending chain of thought
All connected someway or another
All leading to a point
I'm not more than a flock of dust
Caught in a spider's web
Strugling to get out of it
Trying to survive
Everything starts somewhere
But where does mine?
A beginning which have not yet found his end
A story without its happy ending
My tale has no knight on a white horse
No fairies flying around
No singing-a-longs
And neither it has merry folk dancing on the streets
My story is one with dark clouds
Surrounding my own dark castle
Only darkness, even where the sun shines
People are depressed and sit inside 24/7
Human society makes me lock myself in a tower
Somewhere faraway from all the do's and don'ts
Where there's no trouble or disturbance
I can just hang around and do nothing
There will be no thoughts
Crawling into me
Catching my mind of guard
Taking in all of my space
I will just sit alone
On my own little planet
Surrounded by screaming and singing
I won't hear a thing
People will try to contact me
My giant bubble will keep them out
I don't want any disturbance
Just some quiet time after centuries of noise
It can be anywhere in the world
I haven't found it
But I will keep searching the rest of mt living days
Until i find a spot where I can be me