life is not easy
life isn't a try
and I know
my life is a lie
my inside is a mess
it's too much hurt
I'm lost in my feelings
and lost in my world
I'm just a girl
lost in this big f*cking lie
people says I'm pretty on the outside
but on the inside I'll cry
I know I can cut myself
and I want to, so f*cking deep
but I have to keep up, for persons I love
so I'm again crying quietly till I sleep
I'll look up to my sky
where the clouds still be
I'm begging for the sunshine
cause that sky is reflecting me
so this is me and my lie
maybe nice on the outside
but on the inside still cry