[parental advisory]
Dear god
Sometimes i stab holes in my legs[icantfeelanything]
sometimes i look in the mirror, WHy lord why?
Sometimes i pretend i'm barbie
sometimes i can see the veins[beforethebloodcomespooringout]
sometimes i think it's supposed to be like that
sometimes, when the bruises faded
and the lipstick is gone, i lay in my bed [handinhandwithmyself]
sometimes i wonder why u want me [deadanddrowned]so badly
sometimes i show you reality [sometimesbutneverforever]
Sometimes i put razorblades in my mouth and pray someone will kiss me
sometimes the scars look like diamonds
[onlysometimes]
sometimes my heart skips a beat
and i have to put on more mascara
always and forever didnt mean much
it did when you saw through the make-up and the cold hard plastics [rememberwhatwaswhenyouwantedtodie]
i want you to see my face
when you are paralysed with fear
and the sky turns gunmetalgrey
[whentehceilingcomescrashingdown]
sometimes the band-aids come off
and no one comes near me
sometimes i pull out my hair and break my fake nails ,
just to see what it feels like
sometimes i ware a crown, and pretend the whole world is watching
sometimes my skin aint perfect
and my home aint safe
sometimes everything is perfect
but i just cant remember
my dyed black hair still covers my ugly fucking face
my photoshopped face makes me boulimic
my cocaine white teeth make me wish i could bleech my life away
my 6 inch stilleto's and things make me feel like i can fly
my fake breasts and matchin sarcasme will mean the death [ofyou]
my black make-up and beamer make me feel like a rock star
as do my expensive shades and dick-sucking skills
say lord what about you?
who are you?