Today someone asked me how I was
I answered without hesitating that I was fine
while looking down at the floor.
why is this the responds I gave
I wonder to myself
thinking about the news I just heard
the news of rejection
Remember the total numbness from that moment
Realizing that I was truly doing fine
The words he spoke didn’t hurt me
As if It never happened I moved on
remembering a similar situation
that made me feel completely torn
It makes me wonder what is wrong
Why am I feeling numb?
Have I totally lost control
Control of my emotions
and how did I let this happen to myself
Wondering why nobody stopped me from letting myself die inside
or maybe that’s the reason it happened in the first place.