IK / Ouders / Toekomst
a feeling like this, such an anger inside,
gone with the pleasure, gone is the pride.
Wings are cut off and tied with rope,
a feeling so powerless, sadness, no hope.
trying to start over..each time and each day,
why can't I shut it down, why can't I just say....
but resistance is futile..a word not strong enough.
why can't I get harder...why not more tough.
want to run...to scream, destroying everything in reach,
that's not the way..but it feels bounded with a leash..
want to break out, go away to never return...
let go of those anger, make all this not usefull to me burn.
A past I know shall always follow me, where ever I'll go
but a past is not present, and doesn't let a future show.
Can't live on a past that currently reappears,
not by me, defenitely not by me, but by those with unreal fears.
I want to start over, am starting over..my life will be mine
but not all those around me are letting go..letting it flow with time
They can not hold on to what they don't posses,
but they don't listen to that..they just care less.
Each time I'm trying a next step, a next fase,
their pulling back the leash, not seen, back to their base.
Their base is not mine and I'm not their's to keep,
but sometimes it hits me hard..hurts my soul so deep.
They don't see it, thinking that they know it all,
why can't they understand that because of that I will fall.
Overprotecting, overcaring, it doesn't matter it's overdone
I can't have a life, will not have such a life, I want it gone.
Ready to put it beside, take my life in my hands and see where it goes,
with someone that cares, someone that loves, someones that shows
that I'm good enough for who I am, not who they want me to be..
that my steps are mine to take, our steps ours and our future...we will see
That's my love, my hope and my strength and it takes me forth...
- Macaan -
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