What if I’m starting to think .. what’s life worth?
Is it really that beautiful as they are trying to make me believe?
I don’t know anything anymore.
I’m trying to understand the meaning of love, hope and faith.
But still I can’t find the right answers.
People are judging me, trying to change me.
What would they do if I can’t change?
I hope they realize it’s not that easy,
to think different from what I’m doing now.
The song I’m hearing inside my head,
is nothing but fear and loneliness.
I wish I could go back to the time I felt happy.
We all know it’s too late.
My boyfriend, he’s so sweet for me,
I really think he’s the one.
But I don’t know if I’m the one for him.
I just can’t tell him how I really feel.
That I’m feeling lost in this world,
how I don’t know what people are expecting,
and maybe everything they expecting is not feasible.
I’m feeling so down, down, down inside.
I’m feeling fat, useless, unloved.
The problem is, I can’t love myself enough.
Every time I look in the focking mirror,
all I see is a girl with a big head,
and in her eyes she’s saying something else.
She’s telling me that she’s don’t wants to be here,
that’s she’s sick of all of this.
People think she can do better,
but she’s doing everything she can.
All the times she’s been crying,
no one saw it.
She was crying with her head in the pillow,
so no one will notice it’s not okay.
Smile, baby, smile.
A tear rolls down her face,
another one follows.
It’s breaking her heart.
Hij is nogal lang en waarschijnlijk zal heel veel niet kloppen, maar het is puur mijn gevoel en wat ik graag kwijt wou. Sorry.