It never tells me when it’s coming
But it’s always there
Just waiting for the moment of weakness when it can strike
It will tell me lies, lets my head spin
Into the early hours of the morning
It always tells me.. I should
Or I shouldn’t feel like this..
Won’t just let me be
Accept what’s going on, let feelings run through me
Without judgement of either good or bad
Tears well up and I am suppressing them
I should be over this, why did it come back
Up and down like a jo jo
Balance a vague past memory
I am feeling sad and lonely..
Patience , faith and trust
Fed up with saying I am ok
I am not today or just now
An angel spoke to me
And said it’s ok to feel sad..
No more fighting
I let the tears wash away,
Some of the hurt, old pain
Nothing to do with what has happened now
I just re-live it through this experience
A little girl is crying inside
The one that was rejected
Abandoned and always in fear
Of not being good enough or bad
I denied her, her voice wasn’t heard..
Until now, it's ok to feel sad......