my journey to recovery
the way to healing
fighting for the future without
no depression, anorexia, fears
self-harm behaviours left in the past
though I know I will recover
and happiness will come my way
scars of my past will always stay
my body may always keep them
but more does my heart remember
I’ll always know what it feels like
to live in a world cold and dark
to wish and pray you’ll leave it
sooner rather than later – please, tonight?
and I’ve dreamt of it a million times
now I’m on my way to change
taking the chance to get to know myself
no more blocking of my thoughts
running away from my feelings
getting used to the mirror reflection
never, no never will I forget
what it feels like to truly hate
every little bit of you
to be completely out of control
not knowing what you’ll do to you
every very next time I will be confronted
depression takes hope
and suicide actually takes life
people left behind wondering why
I will remember I’m lucky to be still alive
that person could have been me
years ago I could have been gone
but I got years of love, joy and hope
things I wish for everyone
again I will feel old pain
scars open, bleed and hurt
for all the pain that person must have been in
pray to God hoping he/she’ll finally know
how much he/she is loved
thank God for my second chance