again
I had a little left,
It’s almost gone now, and I’m ready for more..
Maybe I’ll be able to convince her for more…
And I think I can’t restrain myself to not ask..
I don’t care anymore,
The switch is on…
And I won’t be turned off after these two days..
I’m sorry for failing you,
More than I am for failing myself..
I just didn’t want to hold on today..
The hunger was getting worse the last few days,
And now I can’t keep it still anymore..
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Een weekeind was te doen,
De tweede was ondragelijk..
Het is niet gelukt..
Het enige waar ik nu op wacht is het telefoontje om te halen..
De keuze is al gemaakt,
Er is geen weg meer terug..
Het moet nu, er is geen andere gedachte gang dan dit..
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I did it again..
And it felt so good..
I drove around alone at night,
Just trying to calm down a bit to come home..
I know the risk,
I know it’s not safe..
But I can’t say I care..
I know you will read this eventually,
I just hope it isn’t soon..
I just need to get it out,
I don’t want to bother anyone anymore with this..
I made the promise that she wouldn’t give me anymore,
All I hope is that she remembers,
Cause she couldn’t remember the last time I asked this,
That’s why I was able to get it..
I’ll try to sleep now,
And I’ll try to finish all that is left tomorrow..
Starting a new line..
Working myself back up all over again..
Even though I was doing so well,
I just didn’t want to go through with it..
Next week,
I’ll try again..
Cause this isn’t the future I was hoping for..