The tears can’t stop streaming down my cheeks,
Is this what my life has become..
Is this the person my mom should be proud of?
She doesn’t even know who I am,
She doesn’t even know what I’m doing..
I live my life,
But I don’t feel it anymore..
And I can’t believe how it has ever come to this..
I can’t believe this is the path I created,
And I don’t even know how to walk it anymore..
But I don’t have the strength and the will to create a new path..
I feel so lost in this world,
The life I created is the greatest thing I hate besides myself..
But that’s all I’m used to,
That’s all I know..
The person I’ve become, and known to hate,
Is a shell now..
I don’t know who I’ve become..
I can’t remember who I was..
And I don’t know who I want to be..
It may look, as if I got it all under control,
But I’ll always be as heartless as I am when anger raised..
I’ll always fight for my believes,
even though I don’t believe in anything but losing this all..
I don’t believe in anything anymore,
This life what I created isn’t worth living for..
I hurt everyone around me,
Even when I don’t notice it or don’t want to..
This is what I have become…
People leave,
It’s easier this way..
Now they don’t have to leave anymore,
I’ll leave.. leave this all behind..