If I leave here tomorrow,
will you still rember me?
Would you understand that I had to go,
out of this life, in hope to finally be free?
The pain is too much to carry for me,
I wished it wasn't so.
That I could still be strong,
and continue with fighting,
that I could still carry on.
But I am so tired after all these years,
I just can't go on anymore.
I don't want anybody to see my tears,
or knowing what I know for sure.
I will be fighting the rest of my life,
against this horrible past.
Just trying to survive,
It will be a fight that forever will last.
The selfhate and selfdestruction are killing me,
so if I leave here tomorrow,
would you be able te forgive me?
Would you understand that I just wanted to be free?
N&R