I can dream all day of a better place,
imagine a million things that I could do..
But in the end I am still here,
and not there where I want to be..
I wonder if it is even possible,
to be at that place one of these days..
Where I can feel the smiles,
and I don’t have to pretend to be okay..
Where I’ll just be happy again..
I can imagine holding you in a warm embrace,
where I don’t have to let you go,
only if we want to..
I imagine my body healthy,
and not the constant tired limbs i try to drag forward..
I imagine a day,
when all the dark thoughts will disappear,
when there is only room left to love..
I’m waiting for the days
when the shaking will stop,
when I don’t have to scratch myself open
to stop the itch..
When I can sleep a full night
and when my mind is at ease..
Its a long road to walk,
but I can’t wait until I’ve reached my point,
my safe haven..
I’m waiting for the day,
that I can breathe the air and say:
I’m alive again..