I am empty.. don’t know what to say...
So many times I’d tried.. but none of the poems are real...
And so i tried again....
For the truth that becomes a lie
For the love that becomes hate
For a friend who becomes a enemy
For a poem that becomes a bad story....
For you I would dy
For you I would cry
For you I become shy
You can make me fly!
I can't tell you a story
Although I would
I can't say you me feelings
Although I should
I just can't express myself
I love and I hate
Just one same person
And I just don't know it anymore!
I write and throw it away
I can’t find a perfect way to say
To write my feelings down
Before I made it to something that deserves a crown
But never will be true
Cause I know I would do...
I always want to be perfect and good
Perfect to be understood
Good to be the things around me
So they also will be
I know I made a mess of it all
And wanna slam my head to a wall
I thought it will be allright
I thought it was good for once
But life doesn’t like me I guess
Cause love isn’t here now...
I just wanna feel arms around me
I wanna feel safety...
I just wanna feel those warmth
And know it will be allright
How can I live life like this
How can I go further?!
Why can’t it be real,
The fairy I believe in?!!
My friends said I do deserve
I do deserve love
But what if I just don’t
I don’t deserve love...
He said I was lovely and a beauty
I knew he was lying
But why shouldn’t he made me feel better
But now it feels like dying
He was my boyfriend
Until I didn’t hear from him anymore
I didn’t saw him anymore
And that’s what I did it for
I felt, Oh so hard
And no one to catch me
I had to do it all alone
And all I feel is confused...
Could it ever be allright?!
Could I ever feel love again..
Could I ever feel real love?
Or is it just not meant to be...
Ain’t I meant to be
Meant to be for love...
Can’t I feel those arms around me
Because I just don’t deserve...
But what about love...
What about a heart
When it can hate you
When it can break...
The pain is what you feel the last...
And none of the beautiful memories can make that allright!