29-5-'05

I don't know where to start
This world is SO hard
I've been hurt too many times
and yesterday, it happened again

I don't know why I fall in love
But it's one thing I'm getting sick of
And I know I can't just stop it
I know I can't stop the pain for even a bit

And actually I'm too confused to write a poem
Because my mind is so far gone
Back to hell, where it belongs

But I just need to write this of of me
It's the only way I'm going to feel free

And the stupid thing is
that it probably means nothing to you
But I am feeling so down
I don't know what to do

Just, everything is going wrong with me
I really really thought, that there could be a we..
But you didnt even remember when we kissed
And it meant so much to me, all of this

It was the first time I ever did that
it was a week after we first met..
Now it seems like I just wasted it
And you can't even remember any minute

And I still have a million questions
But I think I'm too scared to ask them

When I read this in a few months
Probably all my problems will be gone
And I'll be laughing at myself...
But at this moment, my life is hell

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I didn't really think when I wrote this down, that's why there is hardly any structure...though there's alot of emotion :-(