You died so suddenly
I never got the chance to say goodbye
I never told you how I felt about you
if only...
We weren't even allowed to see you
because we wouldn't recognize your face
It felt so weird, as if you weren't really gone
It feels like a disgrace
I didn't have time for closure
because I didn't get to see you
I didn't give myself time to grieve
but now it's time to let go, I hope you do too
When you just died, I would see you everywhere
I was actually a bit scared
Because i knew you were gone, but I didn't accept it
I just want you to know I really cared
You were always very special to me
I never really showed
I kept thinking about you as the years have gone by
but now I want to be free
I want to thank you for being there
For showing me what's important in life
Even though you might not be aware
You had a huge impact in my life
So I am starting the process of mourning now
I am going to think about myself for once
I still keep you in my heart
And I can thank you by taking a bow