I’m scared
of this pain
when I close my eyes,
when I choke my cries,
when I face my fears,
when I hide my tears,
when I wish for death,
when I feel its breath.
It tortures me
every second of my life.
I don’t know
where it ends,
how far that it can go,
how bad that it can be
how long that it may last
and even less
how much I can stand,
but I know it’s getting worse
for a reason I don’t understand.
I’m afraid
that I can’t take this
any longer.