I am just a clown
I smile,
Make funny remarks
But only on the outside.
On the inside
I am tearing appart,
By my fears
And by my horrid memories.
They see me smiling
They think I am OK.
But I'm not.
I'm not at all.
I act tough
But the truth is
that I'm just insecure,
And that i simply hate myself.
I've become a girl
That can't look in the mirror
Without being discussed
By what she sees..
A girl
That has lost all hope
To be able
To take off the mask
That she has been wearing
Too long.
A girl
That could not live without her mask anymore..