you wouldn't know how much I've suffered
how I fought through my life!
it made me stronger...
it made me a big girl!
it made me the person that I am right now
someone who you can always count on!
even when it's hard for me too...
it made me look at life in another way
than most girls at my age
for them the fun has yet begun!
for me there has never been fun...
I wish there was!
but somewhere...
deep... deep inside me
lies the careless litlle girl that I was
and I wish I could be her again!
sometimes she comes up
and I'm happy!
but then the person that I'm now comes up
and everything changes...
from warm to cold
from colourful to grey
...
the careless girl has changed
in an unsure girl!
wish I could change that...
but I can't!
nobody can...