Only I was to blame
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Countless days went by,
Months slowly turning into years.
My time did not ever fly,
Because of all my endless fears.
None would understand me,
None could hear my prayer.
It was too hard for them to see,
How much I was in despair.
The blankness in my mind,
Had made my thoughts indifferent.
Years ago I fell behind,
Cause I was all too different.
I never liked what I became,
But how to stop what can’t be turned about?
To me it was like all the same,
Though my head was filled with doubt.
And when little time had passed,
I stopped caring about the shame.
Whatever had happened in my past,
Only I was one to blame.
But now I’ll make it better,
It’s time for me to see.
I can’t put it in a letter,
What I’m about to be.
I choose to become a better person,
For only I can choose to be.
My situation will not worsen,
But lighten up for me.