Do you understand these tears that I cry?
That every one represents a fear deep inside.
Have you ever noticed the look in my eyes.
When I'm scared or alone or living in my own disguise.
Just like a clown, I paint a smile to hide the pain
But even with a smile, this feeling inside drives me insane
The feeling that eats away at my soul and my heart
The feeling that can keep me from happiness,
Many times being oceans apart.
I drive myself crazy lying awake and dreaming at nights
For my dreams are nothing but pain
Only making me wonder if I'm fighting the right fight.
There is so much more to me than what the eyes can see
I'm living in my own disguise