Yesterday night I was wondering
wandering, in the cold outside
If you'd only see what's going on
sigh, what would that be like
The bitter taste of losing
the moments that I live through
Just breaking ice, letting go
of everything I held on to
I was searching for my keys
aware that I had to be quiet
Suddenly I didn't want to go in
there was this emptiness
I couldn't fight it
Smashing my back against the wall
sliding, down against the bricks
Reaching the cold ground, frozen
this is something I cannot fix
The sick feeling, of surrender
afraid that I was gonna choke
Just closing my eyes, waiting
for everything to go
11 feb 2006