I hate tears...especially hers.
I loath my fears...They shadow me like a curse.
I love the dark, a safe place to hide.
I feel like a dog who can't bark, but only bite.

I'm scared of tears.
When I see them blurr your eyes.
I don't want to hear.
All your pretending and lies.
Your not okay, I know ,yet you disagree.
I never asked you to stay, I rather wanted you to flee.

I smile at your tears.
For you'll only cry for me.
I love the sight of all of you I can see.
The sight that you'll only collapse in front of me.

Just for tonight,...only for tonight I'll turn to what I was.
Just for tonight and for you, I will yet again face the loss.
I will bear to free you from every stain.
While me myself will silently cry in pain.
But I know you'll smile for me after the task.
And to be honest...for that...I'll do everything you ask...