Dedicated to Jennifer wich i believe is my one and only love.


Heej tis vandaag bagger weer dus ik heb de hele dag thuis zitten denken en schrijven. Het is nu 23.55 en leg de laatste hand aan wat ik geschreven heb. Ik loop de hele dag al in mijn trainingspak en ben de deur niet eens uit geweest. Weetje nog dat we laatst tegen elkaar zeiden dat in het engels dingen makkelijker zijn te verwoorden. Je hebt gelijk en heb dat dan ook gedaan. Vergeef me als de tekst ongelooflijk wanhopig lijkt maar het is mijn visie van vroeger nu en later met betrekking op jou. Lees nu maar dan snap je alles wel.

My darling,... where do I begin? I know I've written you a million of these letters that you have hidden in a drawer in your bedroom. I'm sure this will make a great addition....

That night that our paths crossed was as if a magnetic force joined us. It seemed as if I forgot to wake up that morning and face true reality. As our eyes connected it seemed too fresh and real to be a dream. The fire, the strength, the longing to be loved, words were not needed as we stared and watched as the world closed in and stopped at these two souls connected like the center point of an eye.
I remember when we first spoke, as if we have known one another for years. Our conversations went on as if the seasons were changing without us stopped talking. Never could I have asked for anything more assuring or hypnotizing than the soothing tone of your voice and the words lingering off them. You made my days sunny even though the nights rained on endlessly.
We completed one another. How I long for you to know that the feeling is mutual, that I have never met a woman that can read through me and explore my inner core. Please keep in mind that I will not take your heart, that I hold, for granted. I will replace it with mine, so you know I wouldn't be able to breathe without it.
You are a splendid jewel I released. Never would I let a soul take you away or bring harm near you. The day I looked into the blue recesses of your soul - correction: my soul, I knew no force could ruin the joining of two souls.
Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you. It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart; these things set you apart from everyone else. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know even more someday. And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing.Before we even met, my love, I should have told you this: there's this special love that I have deep within my heart. That love is only just for you. It is far greater than this planet, galaxy or universe. I wish I could show you how much you really mean to me. If I could let you feel how much I do really love you in a kiss or hug, you would only feel the surface of the love that I have for you.The only possible way is to promise you my love for eternity. For then you will see and taste how much I love you.
You can hear the language of my love for you by listening to my heart; it will speak to you. You can taste the sweetest of it in a kiss and you can feel it in a hug. When you look deep into my eyes, you will see how great my love for you is. You will also know and see that it's no lie!
If I could describe the love that I have for you, I would try and use lyrics of love songs and even the sonnets of Shakespeare and it would be impossible, because the love that I love for you is real, unconditional, everlasting and indescribable. You've had my heart and love from the day we met and you will have it forever. As time goes by, my heart and love for you will keep on growing stronger, brighter and bigger.
I hope in future prospects you will call me your love, lover, boyfriend and future husband from this day forth.that You’lle be mine, as I am all yours. Although we have two different bodies, minds and souls, we have one and the same beautiful heart.
This is my unconditional love for you, from me to you.
Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you.
Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you.
Soul mates do exist and now I have learned that there is beauty behind all imperfections. It's true when they say, "God makes you meet a few wrong people, before you meet the right one, so you will be able to appreciate and understand their worth."

I could write on an on until I’ve written an entire book dedacated to you but at this point I think I should stop writing. And I hope that now you see a little bit better inside me and inside my heart. I don’t want you to take anything in consideration. All I want Is you to be happy for the rest of your life. I hope one day you will wear a ring from my hand to seal that thought.Thank you for all that you have given me and that I hope you continue too.

Love Always,
Neal