I didn't think I would ever feel again like this
I don't feel well
there are too many things in life I miss.
It hurts like hell
I hate this spirit
I don't feel well
and I can't live with it.
Not anymore, not again
I want to close this door
of life with all the sadness in.
Tears all over me
my eyes are welling up
my heart is torn in two
nothing but sorrow I see
Isn't there anybody who knowes what to do?
Even my wishes and dreams
aren't anymore
and my only support also lives
behind this door
She was taken away
without a reason
taken away farther
than the sun.
She could help me stay warm
in times like this
she's the greatest one I miss
In her arms I found shelter and understanding,
she was my lightning.
For here I kept nothing hidden
I want to go to her, but that is forbidden.
Than I ask myself why
why can't I just die?
So I pray to god
please set me free
let me finally be
who and where I want to be
Because down here
I am afraid
so help me
before it's to late.