Hi Babygirl,
How are you doing, hope you're cool it's been a while
I hope each day that passes greets you with a smile
The road has been a litte heavy, since we parted ways
I've been counting the seconds, the minutes and the days
I still struggle with your absence with every step I take
And the pain that's tied to that still keeps me wide awake
But switching up to a note that sounds much happier
The gift of a new life, starting lifes most important career
I heard God sent you a blessing you thought would never come
Congratulations baby, I know you'll be a wonderful mum
I just thought I' d take to time to put in words my feelings
The loss of you and other issues with which I am dealing
Words cannot explain, I am so sorry for your loss
That I turned my back on you due to anger for what you caused
I remember a voice that says please don't hurt my daughter
I think the guilt from that might just last until forever
I did my best to reach you I even reached out to your friends
You just assumed in my position I knew what role to represent
I remember the phone call and the chaos it activated
I became so isolated, the guy the whole world hated
I often asked myself, could this have been an intervention
Then I thought nah, not with all your sister mentioned
An intervention comes with an element of amazement
Followed by we love you's and words of encouragement
I chose to keep my distance because instead I got a letter
Assassinating my character, so I said it's probably better
My whole world was falling apart so I felt if that was the case
There will be no more use standing in each others ways
I miss the times I would just gravitate towards you
Now it seems to be the most selfish thing to do
I miss being with you, It was the best feeling I could find
Today if that would happen we'd be behind enemy lines
I still love you and I realize that might never change
It's getting better but being without you still feels strange
If I ever left you feeling that you were not worth loving
I hope you can forgive me, it was due to my shortcomings
But baby, only a fool loses tomorrow holding on to yesterday
So I write down the things that I never got to say
If it so happens that I never see your face
In my heart for you I'll preserve a special space
If you were with me now, this is what I would say
Just so that you know, If I should breathe my last today
I wish you good fortune in everything you do
Yours
Intimatestrangers