~Accepting self acceptance?~
tried to loose my pain
without hurting you
so keeping everything inside
left me tired and broken,
just a few parts of me were left
I decided to break them
so they would have scars too
yeah, you say I should have talked
it was too much for me
to keep it all inside
still I’m glad I didn’t share
it’s not worth to hurt you too
hurting me is more than enough
far more than too much
I know it’s so wrong
even before I knew it would
my pain left me empty
wanting to die really soon
so I could take all my grieve
away – with me in the grave
however, I was so wrong!
I couldn’t believe people
who didn’t really know me
would care about me not being here
and I forgot my suicide
would make them see my secret:
too much pain for me to live with
so I’d rather die than tell you.
now I’m still alive
the pain I’ve felt for years
still keeps hurting me
it hurts me even more today
‘cause I know I’ve hurt others too
though I can’t understand why
I now do know they love me
wondering why, questioning
trying everything to prove they don’t
it’s sinking in.. slowly down:
the only way to stop me
from hurting them so much
- would really be
starting to love Myself…