Why

Why did you do it?
Did you want to control me?
Or was it for your 7 seconds of pleasure?
Or to see how my reaction would be?

It took only 10 minutes
But it ruined my whole life
I just stopped cutting myself
But now im sitting again with my knife

I was just coming out of a depression
But you kicked me right down again
Maybe it will get better sometime
I don’t know when

Its not any time soon
That’s all I know
Cause my wounds have to heal
And my trust has to grow

Or maybe it wont get better
I don’t think these wounds can heal
I don’t think ill trust anyone again
Nothing can change the way I feel

I just want to die now
Even more then ever before
I don’t want to live in this world anymore
That’s all I know for sure

17-03-2002